There are two different mes. There is the adult Bite and the little Bite. I don’t really understand it, so there is no possible way that I can efficiently articulate it to you. I have two different personalities. No, I am not Sybil. I don’t hear voices and I don’t hear voices telling me to do things nor is the personality protecting me from something from my past. I just become the child me. I color, I watch cartoons, play with my stuffed animals, or Daddy simply holds me.
A few months after Frolicon, I met someone online who soon became my Daddy. He provided structure and guidance I needed. He helped to keep me focused and to help me make me better. He got to see a side of me that I hadn’t seen in myself before. When that relationship ended, I just kind of assumed that the Daddy/daughter part of my life was over………
then I met the Giant.
I told him before we first met that sometimes I like to color. He didn’t seem even the least bit fazed. The second I laid eyes on him I thought he’s Daddy (ok that’s a lie, my first thought was holy shit he’s hot….then I thought he’s Daddy). When we setup our first date he specifically told me to bring my crayons and coloring books if I needed them to feel comfortable. After he gave me aftercare i grabbed my coloring book and crayons and began to color while laying on the floor. It felt right, it felt natural. I caught a glimpse of him watching me with a protective glaze. My cold black heart melted a bit.
As I spent more and more time with him, I noticed a switch in my personality. I noticed that I started acting like a child. It isn’t by choice. A switch in my head flips and I begin to talk a little differently, suck my thumb, and take on different mannerisms and such. I don’t think what I am going to do, it is completely natural. I remember once, he was holding me on the couch in his arms and I started sucking my thumb. I didn’t do this when I was a child, but now, when I am her, the thumb sucking helps to calm and settle me when I get nervous. I don’t do it on purpose, it just happens
He is my Dom, my lover and my Daddy. All three relationships are rolled into one. Seperate parts of him come out at diffent times, just like they come out for me.
This Daddy/baby girl relationship is new to me. I am trying to figure out my little. His other sub pointed out to me that although I don’t fully understand how electricity works, but I accept it. While this is very true, I also know that I need to uderstand this side of me. My little gets jealous and is afraid of losing Daddy. She is insecure and can be afraid and confused. She will look for clues from those around her, but she may not know how to react to them. I will figure this out, I have to. The Giant will help me.